I am wondering today why I had this surgery; it has just been one of those days. I haven't felt well all day; I've had a really bad headache, the arthritis in my shoulder is killing me and of course there isn't any thing that I can take to help take the inflammation down that will actually help make it feel better.
I'm not feeling sorry for my self but I am feeling a little frustrated about hurting really bad. I'll get over it and think differently about it tomorrow; its just one of those days. Thank you for letting me rant a little bit about hurting and being frustrated.
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
My Journey….
I have been blogging since the fifth of January; I’ve talked about the good times and the highs; I’ve also talked about the hard times and the lows. I never thought for a moment that this was going to be an easy road that I had decided to take; I did now that it would be worth it in the long.
My doctor’s office referred me to Dr. Belnap for a consultation for a Gastric Bypass; it took me a while to make the call. This was a major decision that I was making and it was a life changing one, something not to be entered into lightly. I am a religious person; and when there is something of great importance that I need help with I turn to God to help me to know that I am doing the right thing or that what I am wanting to do it right. I prayed about having a Gastric Bypass for a month before I got my answer and I knew for asurety that this was the road that I should be taking.
I remember the night that I went to meet with Vikki and Dr. Belnap for the first time; I was nervous and I didn’t know what to expect. I got up there and filled out my paper, talked to some of the people who were up there for the same reason. A couple of them were self pay and were scheduling there surgeries that night, and I have to admit that I was jealous; I am glad that I had insurance that would pay for my surgery but at the same time I wasn’t looking forward to the year a head of me. Lost of test and blood work but you know everything went really fast and surprisingly well. I was approved for my surgery ten months after I started.
I know that I am glad that I chose to go to Dr. Belnap; even though I had to loose forty-seven pounds before I had surgery. He told me when I went up for my pre-operative appointment that it may take me a few months but that I could do it; he asked me how one went about loosing weight (I a pro at that) I went on 100 grams of proteins 20 grams of carbohydrates, no sugar, no carbonated beverages (my own choice) no bread, pasta, rice or potatoes. This diet works; I was tiered and ornery and I had the shakes and was nauseated a lot, but I got enough weight off in seven weeks to have surgery. He also told me that the weight loss was to help him be able to get in there to do what he has to do; and to help me it made my recovery so much easier than my other friends that have had the surgery.
THIS IS POSSIBLE! It can be done I did it, I walked out of my appointment that night told my husband that I wasn’t disappointed and that I was going to loose this weight as fast as possible.
Here is a sample of how I ate when I was preparing for surgery.
Breakfast
I would have a soft boiled egg, 12 g protein
I would have Canadian bacon with that
And a glass a milk
I would chew on raw almonds if I needed something in between meals, they sit in your stomach and help fill you longer and they are a good source of protein.
Lunch
I would have tune, 20 g protein
Cottage cheese, 12 g protein
String cheese, 6 g protein
And then I would have green veggies with it because green veggies are good for you.
Dinner
Some kind of chicken or turkey (tried not too eat too much red meat)
Veggies again
Cottage cheese
Drink lots and lots of water it is good for you in more ways than you can know!
I know that I really focused hard on proteins and some days I felt like all I was doing was eating; but one week after surgery I had lost thirteen pounds and I was excited and rearing to go.
I want every one to know that is thinking about this surgery; or is getting ready for surgery that it is worth it, I can’t tell you that it was easy but I will tell you that it was worth it. In six months I have lost one hundred and forty three pounds and I feel so amazing. The women that I am now I never thought that I would get the chance to be.
Having a Gastric Bypass saved my life; and Dr. Belnap played a major roll that. I am so grateful for the new life that I have been given; I have already done things that I never thought that I would do. So just hang in there I know that you can do it, remember its not easy but it is worth every tear, every loud out burst and every frustration that you feel; because the feeling of that weight melting off is the most amazing feeling in the world. So keep your chin up and keep on keeping on! YOU CAN DO IT!!!!!!
My doctor’s office referred me to Dr. Belnap for a consultation for a Gastric Bypass; it took me a while to make the call. This was a major decision that I was making and it was a life changing one, something not to be entered into lightly. I am a religious person; and when there is something of great importance that I need help with I turn to God to help me to know that I am doing the right thing or that what I am wanting to do it right. I prayed about having a Gastric Bypass for a month before I got my answer and I knew for asurety that this was the road that I should be taking.
I remember the night that I went to meet with Vikki and Dr. Belnap for the first time; I was nervous and I didn’t know what to expect. I got up there and filled out my paper, talked to some of the people who were up there for the same reason. A couple of them were self pay and were scheduling there surgeries that night, and I have to admit that I was jealous; I am glad that I had insurance that would pay for my surgery but at the same time I wasn’t looking forward to the year a head of me. Lost of test and blood work but you know everything went really fast and surprisingly well. I was approved for my surgery ten months after I started.
I know that I am glad that I chose to go to Dr. Belnap; even though I had to loose forty-seven pounds before I had surgery. He told me when I went up for my pre-operative appointment that it may take me a few months but that I could do it; he asked me how one went about loosing weight (I a pro at that) I went on 100 grams of proteins 20 grams of carbohydrates, no sugar, no carbonated beverages (my own choice) no bread, pasta, rice or potatoes. This diet works; I was tiered and ornery and I had the shakes and was nauseated a lot, but I got enough weight off in seven weeks to have surgery. He also told me that the weight loss was to help him be able to get in there to do what he has to do; and to help me it made my recovery so much easier than my other friends that have had the surgery.
THIS IS POSSIBLE! It can be done I did it, I walked out of my appointment that night told my husband that I wasn’t disappointed and that I was going to loose this weight as fast as possible.
Here is a sample of how I ate when I was preparing for surgery.
Breakfast
I would have a soft boiled egg, 12 g protein
I would have Canadian bacon with that
And a glass a milk
I would chew on raw almonds if I needed something in between meals, they sit in your stomach and help fill you longer and they are a good source of protein.
Lunch
I would have tune, 20 g protein
Cottage cheese, 12 g protein
String cheese, 6 g protein
And then I would have green veggies with it because green veggies are good for you.
Dinner
Some kind of chicken or turkey (tried not too eat too much red meat)
Veggies again
Cottage cheese
Drink lots and lots of water it is good for you in more ways than you can know!
I know that I really focused hard on proteins and some days I felt like all I was doing was eating; but one week after surgery I had lost thirteen pounds and I was excited and rearing to go.
I want every one to know that is thinking about this surgery; or is getting ready for surgery that it is worth it, I can’t tell you that it was easy but I will tell you that it was worth it. In six months I have lost one hundred and forty three pounds and I feel so amazing. The women that I am now I never thought that I would get the chance to be.
Having a Gastric Bypass saved my life; and Dr. Belnap played a major roll that. I am so grateful for the new life that I have been given; I have already done things that I never thought that I would do. So just hang in there I know that you can do it, remember its not easy but it is worth every tear, every loud out burst and every frustration that you feel; because the feeling of that weight melting off is the most amazing feeling in the world. So keep your chin up and keep on keeping on! YOU CAN DO IT!!!!!!
Sunday, September 21, 2008
What a Relief.....
I have been under a great deal of stress of the last couple of months; and I finally hit my first plateau. Mind you I wasn't really stressed out about it; I know that they are normal during any weight loss, but let me tell you that they are not fun. I went back to the basics, concentrating on getting in enough proteins and not getting too many carbohydrates; even though I only eat complex carbohydrates I get sick if I eat too many. Well after playing with the same six pounds for a month I got on the scale this weekend and I am down nine pounds, which puts me a two hundred and seventy nine pounds.
I am twenty seven weeks out from surgery and I am doing great, I have to be honest with you; I DID NOT THINK THAT I WOULD LOOSE THIS MUCH MY FIRST YEAR!!!!! I have a little over a hundred pounds left too loose and I am hoping to get as much of it off as possible. I love the new person that I am; I love the way that people look at me now, they look at me with pride and awe and it is an amazing feeling.
This was one of the hardest decisions that I have ever made and I did not enter into it lightly; but I am glad that I had the surgery and that I chose to go to Dr. Belnap, he has given me a new lease on life and I am loving it. I am so grateful for the life that I am able to lead now; it wouldn't have been possible if I wouldn't have had a gastric bypass.
I am having a little bit of a problem but it isn't anything serious. My good cholesterol, is a little low but the doctor has put me on Niacin and has added whole grains to my diet. He also told me that exercise will help raise it back up as well. I've been a little light headed and dizzy lately and I am not sure why, I have a doctors appointment tomorrow to talk to him about all that. I also have an appointment on the twenty forth of next month to have complete blood work done again to check my cholesterol and everything.
I see my surgery Saturday for my six month check up and I am excited to see him and talk to him. His staff is always telling me that I am there Star Patient and that they are so proud of me. I have been wanting this all my life and this is my one chance to take control of my life and take it back, and actually start to live!
I want to thank all of you for the hundredth time for all the love and support that you have shown me; this has been a hard and difficult road that I am on and it helps a lot to have such wonderful friends and family behind me. You give me strength to face each new challenge and your love keeps me standing tall.
I love you all!
I am twenty seven weeks out from surgery and I am doing great, I have to be honest with you; I DID NOT THINK THAT I WOULD LOOSE THIS MUCH MY FIRST YEAR!!!!! I have a little over a hundred pounds left too loose and I am hoping to get as much of it off as possible. I love the new person that I am; I love the way that people look at me now, they look at me with pride and awe and it is an amazing feeling.
This was one of the hardest decisions that I have ever made and I did not enter into it lightly; but I am glad that I had the surgery and that I chose to go to Dr. Belnap, he has given me a new lease on life and I am loving it. I am so grateful for the life that I am able to lead now; it wouldn't have been possible if I wouldn't have had a gastric bypass.
I am having a little bit of a problem but it isn't anything serious. My good cholesterol, is a little low but the doctor has put me on Niacin and has added whole grains to my diet. He also told me that exercise will help raise it back up as well. I've been a little light headed and dizzy lately and I am not sure why, I have a doctors appointment tomorrow to talk to him about all that. I also have an appointment on the twenty forth of next month to have complete blood work done again to check my cholesterol and everything.
I see my surgery Saturday for my six month check up and I am excited to see him and talk to him. His staff is always telling me that I am there Star Patient and that they are so proud of me. I have been wanting this all my life and this is my one chance to take control of my life and take it back, and actually start to live!
I want to thank all of you for the hundredth time for all the love and support that you have shown me; this has been a hard and difficult road that I am on and it helps a lot to have such wonderful friends and family behind me. You give me strength to face each new challenge and your love keeps me standing tall.
I love you all!
Monday, September 15, 2008
More Colorado Pictures!
This is my handsome boy, Anthony is so grown up! Before I always thought of his as the four year old little boy who went to Colorado to live, he defiantly is NOT a little boy anymore. I love him and he's a doll; Girls stay away from him, he can't date until he is 50!
Hallie had herself a good pout when we stopped to take pictures! She only wanted to ride with who ever would go the fastest and on the scariest trails. She is a dare devil like big brother A.J!
Me and Sadies just being silly, she is a sweet girl I wish every one could know her, she is wonderful!
This is Me and my friend Shandy, we have known each other for ever she adores the kids and the kids love her!
This is me on a four wheeler and I had a blast there was no getting me off it. I was really scared at first, but quickly got over it!
Pictures of My Trip to Colorado...
This is one of trails that Sadies my niece took me down while I was in Colorado, I live in Utah and I'm surrounded by the majestic beauty of the mountains, but I was still in awe at how pretty it is. My uncle Hyrums family owns this property!
This is but ONE of the stair cases that we took to get down to the suspension bridge!
This is the Colorado River, it runs directly behind there house; you can lay in bed and listen to its soothing rush!
A view of the Colorado river the above, I can't remember if this was from up by the house; or if it was from the mountain that we were four wheeling on. But I thought that it was beautiful.
This was the other stair case that we took to get down to the bridge and this one was a little difficult because the stairs were not evenly spaced, but I was enchanted!
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Mini-Break Weekend.....
I scheduled Friday off so I could go to Colorado for the weekend and spend some well needed time with my Nieces and Nephews. We had a lot of fun, we arrived Friday afternoon about Three thirty. We sat and visited and just enjoyed each other Friday night, had dinner and just spent time together.
Sadies brought her Ipod and Idock down stairs and I sang with her; and then Sadies, Hallie and Shandy got up and danced and entertained us. It was funny, Then Hallie, Anthony, A.J, Grandpa, and there mom got into to a game of keep-a-way and it got a little out of control and we ended up having to get upset with the kids because they started to be mean to each other.
Well Saturday we had a blast; Uncle Hyrum got three four wheelers for us to ride and it was a blast. We had four all together because they own one them selves. I rode until I couldn't stay on it any more. I hurt so bad today that it isn't funny; and I have the cutest raccoon eyes that I have ever had. But if I wouldn't have had my sunglasses on I would have had more dirt in my eyes than I did. I did a lot of things that I never thought that I would do and I had fun.
The property that the family owns is beautiful I took some pictures and I am going to post them. We went for a small walk/hike and crossed a suspension bridge that crosses the Colorado River. The Pictures speak for them selves so I will just post them and let you enjoy!
Sadies brought her Ipod and Idock down stairs and I sang with her; and then Sadies, Hallie and Shandy got up and danced and entertained us. It was funny, Then Hallie, Anthony, A.J, Grandpa, and there mom got into to a game of keep-a-way and it got a little out of control and we ended up having to get upset with the kids because they started to be mean to each other.
Well Saturday we had a blast; Uncle Hyrum got three four wheelers for us to ride and it was a blast. We had four all together because they own one them selves. I rode until I couldn't stay on it any more. I hurt so bad today that it isn't funny; and I have the cutest raccoon eyes that I have ever had. But if I wouldn't have had my sunglasses on I would have had more dirt in my eyes than I did. I did a lot of things that I never thought that I would do and I had fun.
The property that the family owns is beautiful I took some pictures and I am going to post them. We went for a small walk/hike and crossed a suspension bridge that crosses the Colorado River. The Pictures speak for them selves so I will just post them and let you enjoy!
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
Recognition....
I’m not sure if I have talked about this before; but I have been thinking about it a lot lately and I want to get it off of my chest.
I’ve noticed lately that when I go to the store or to a restaurant or a little shop, that men are starting to notice me! Now the thing about this that bothers me is that I am still fat in my mind and eyes; and men didn’t notice me six months ago but they do now? I find this odd, I feel like I am the same person today that I was back in March; but because I am A LOT smaller than I was then I am a person now, a human being who deserves to be looked at and noticed?
I don’t now maybe I am being over sensitive about everything; but I can tell you that I am so very happy that I found my husband before I lost my weight and that he fell in love with me when I was that other women. I know that he loves me for me and not the body that I am going to have. I think that if I was still single I wouldn’t date any one that I knew before the change.
I know that I have changed a lot more that has to do with more weight, I am more self confident than I was before the life changing surgery. I walk with my head held higher than ever before, and there is a new bounce in my step. I feel beautiful and sexy (even though I still feel fat)
I do like the way some men/people look at me; in an admiring way, I can not believe that this is the same person that I used to know. I guess that it bothers me and it doesn’t, it depends on whom and where we are. I really wish that people who just look at people who are different than them and take the chance to get to know them; instead of judging the book by its cover.
I could go on about this forever but I won’t; I want to hear what all of you to have to say about this. Thank you for the love and support.
I’ve noticed lately that when I go to the store or to a restaurant or a little shop, that men are starting to notice me! Now the thing about this that bothers me is that I am still fat in my mind and eyes; and men didn’t notice me six months ago but they do now? I find this odd, I feel like I am the same person today that I was back in March; but because I am A LOT smaller than I was then I am a person now, a human being who deserves to be looked at and noticed?
I don’t now maybe I am being over sensitive about everything; but I can tell you that I am so very happy that I found my husband before I lost my weight and that he fell in love with me when I was that other women. I know that he loves me for me and not the body that I am going to have. I think that if I was still single I wouldn’t date any one that I knew before the change.
I know that I have changed a lot more that has to do with more weight, I am more self confident than I was before the life changing surgery. I walk with my head held higher than ever before, and there is a new bounce in my step. I feel beautiful and sexy (even though I still feel fat)
I do like the way some men/people look at me; in an admiring way, I can not believe that this is the same person that I used to know. I guess that it bothers me and it doesn’t, it depends on whom and where we are. I really wish that people who just look at people who are different than them and take the chance to get to know them; instead of judging the book by its cover.
I could go on about this forever but I won’t; I want to hear what all of you to have to say about this. Thank you for the love and support.
Monday, September 1, 2008
Sixth Month Check....
On the 27th of September I have my sixth or seventh month check up; and I don't know why I am really nervous to go up and see Dr. Belnap. I am not doing bad in the least, I am actually doing really well. I mean I only have ninety three pounds left to go and it feels absolutely amazing.
I know what I want to look like but I don't think that I am ever going to get there; I also know that I am not built like super models, and that when you are extremely heavy like I was when you do get your weight off, you just don't look the same. It doesn't matter because I am going to look stunning. I know that I am still a little over weight, but I feel skinny and it feels absolutely amazing.
I shouldn't be afraid of Dr. Belnap because he is the sweetest most compassionate and loving man I have ever met. I am glad that he is the one that I chose to go to I couldn't have asked for a better surgeon. If any one is thinking about having a Gastric Bypass I would suggest that you go to him; but keep in mind that he requires his patients to loose any where from twenty five to forty pounds depending on how much you weigh. It is usually about ten percent of your body weight. He does it for your safety and to make things better for you.
Having a great support system is also very important; I have a wonderful group of family and friends who have supported me through this who;e process. I know that I say Thank you all the time but I mean it; thank you for the love and support that all of you have given me it means so much. Remember that if there is ever anything that you need or to just talk about what ever that I am here. You can email me or call me and I will help you with what ever it is that you are having problems with.
Thank you all and God bless!
Ronda
I know what I want to look like but I don't think that I am ever going to get there; I also know that I am not built like super models, and that when you are extremely heavy like I was when you do get your weight off, you just don't look the same. It doesn't matter because I am going to look stunning. I know that I am still a little over weight, but I feel skinny and it feels absolutely amazing.
I shouldn't be afraid of Dr. Belnap because he is the sweetest most compassionate and loving man I have ever met. I am glad that he is the one that I chose to go to I couldn't have asked for a better surgeon. If any one is thinking about having a Gastric Bypass I would suggest that you go to him; but keep in mind that he requires his patients to loose any where from twenty five to forty pounds depending on how much you weigh. It is usually about ten percent of your body weight. He does it for your safety and to make things better for you.
Having a great support system is also very important; I have a wonderful group of family and friends who have supported me through this who;e process. I know that I say Thank you all the time but I mean it; thank you for the love and support that all of you have given me it means so much. Remember that if there is ever anything that you need or to just talk about what ever that I am here. You can email me or call me and I will help you with what ever it is that you are having problems with.
Thank you all and God bless!
Ronda
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