Changes….

Gastric bypass surgery has really changed my life in more ways than I think that people can comprehend. There are days that I have a hard time comprehending the changes that my body is going through. It is absolutely mind blowing to see the way that I have changed and the way that it has affected my life. I have lost one hundred and twenty six pounds and I feel like a new women. I think that the greatest feeling is to see the reactions of friends that I haven’t see in a long time; some of them haven’t recognized me and it feels great.

I know that months ago that I said that I couldn’t wait too see what I was going to look like when I lost weight; well for those of you who know my family I look my momma! It makes me happy because I think that she is a beautiful women; I was told by Vikki from my surgeon’s office that a lot of the time when you loose weight you age slightly. Well thank goodness I have not had that problem! The fact that my hair is falling out is a little disconcerting but I know that it will grow back in. It is an affect from surgery that I can deal with!

Last week I went in for my Physical because it has been a while and I am supposed to go on birth control it isn’t really safe for me to have a baby right at the moment. Well it’s not really unsafe but I don’t get enough nutrition for my self right now; and I would really like to loose as much weight at possible before I go having a baby. In fact Dr. Belnap suggests that you have the children you want before you have weight loss surgery, but there is no way that I could imagine having a baby at four hundred and seventeen pounds.

Well I was generally healthy before surgery cholesterol, sugar and everything was perfect. The doctor’s office called me today and everything is even better than it was before. The only thing that wasn’t good was my “good cholesterol” is a little low, but because my bad cholesterol is also low they aren’t worried about it, it will be okay! All my vitamin levels are good so I am doing great; and I feel BLOODY wonderful!

I want to thank all of you for the love and support that you all show me; it has really helped a lot! I love you all God Bless!

Ciao

I can’t believe it….

It has been a crazy week; my niece and nephews got here on Sunday along with my friend Jackie her husband Joe and there three girls Kayla, Madyson and Emma. We have had a busy fun filled week!

Went had a low key day on Monday, we went grocery shopping and to the distribution center, after that we went to my grandmothers house for her birthday. We just hung out and talked and spent a nice talking and catching up and getting to know each other. Tuesday we went to the Hogel Zoo and walked around, we walked around and had a blast. After that we went and ate lunch and then we went to Temple Square, it was really nice. We had a wonderful day!

I was amazed when we went to the zoo; I was afraid that I was not going to be able to handle walking around. I amazed my self with what I was able to do. I felt so good and it was wonderful being able to spend the day with my favorite kids in the world.

I will update you all more on my fun weeks later and add some pictures as well. Thank You for the love and support, it means a lot to me.

Ciao

The Down Hill Slide….

It is really hard to think that I am half way to my goal; I originally thought that I was going to get down to one hundred and seventy pounds. But I’ve been thinking about it and I think that I am going to aim for between two hundred or one hundred and ninety pounds.

I’m not really short; I’m 5’8 and I don’t really have small bones. I’ve been told by several people that your weight isn’t about the number, its about how you look and feel. I am going to aim high and then go from there. I am four months out from surgery and I am down one hundred and twenty five pounds and it is the most wonderful feeling in the world. I never thought in the world that I would be at this weight and feel this good.

I am grateful for science and the amazing things that they are achieving with medicine. I am so grateful to Doctor Belnap for the second chance at life that he has given me. Someday I will be able to thank him enough for what he has done for me. I wish that every one that had a weight could have this surgery. But I know that this isn’t the answer for everyone; and it wasn’t the answer for me for a long time but when I finally decided that it was, it was the easiest thing in the world to prepare for. I am glad that I did it!

I’ve Finally Done it!

I have been trying for about a month to get down to 299 Pounds; I finally did it this weekend. I have lost a total of 117 pounds and I have 109 to go to hit my goal. I have been thinking about it since I had surgery and I have decided that I think that I am going to get down between 190 and 200 pounds. I don’t think that I could honestly get down any lower and look healthy.

That is why I had this surgery; I want to be skinny and healthy but at the same time I want to look healthy. I want to thank everyone for all the love and support that they have shown me. It has helped me to get to this point and I couldn’t have done it with out your love. This has been the most amazing journey of my life and I can’t tell you how I feel; it is amazing the changes that I have gone through. I feel like a completely different person and it is amazing.

I hope that some day I can find the words to thank Dr. Belnap for giving me back my life. Like I said that this has been amazing and I am so glad that I made this choice. I promise that there will be updated pictures soon, there are so many changes that I need to start taking pictures on a weekly basis. I get told all of the time now that I look my momma and that makes me happy because I think that she is beautiful.

Thank you all again and I love you all and keep you in my prayers!

Ciao!

Independence Day July 4, 2008

I got up this morning and got ready to go to the parade; It made me kind of sad to see how much emphasis that America puts on beauty and perfection. It seemed like there were as many if not more royal floats as there was military or patriotic themes.

It never fails to bring me to tears when I see the brave men and women who protect our country; I have nothing but the utmost respect for them. They do some thing that I my self could never do. This country has grown so much over the years to attain the freedoms that we have. So much blood has been shed for freedom; in this country and in others.

I am proud to be an American; to stand up and salute our flag brings tears to my eyes. We have so much and yet we aren’t content with our lot in life; it could be so much worse than it is. We could live in a country like china that is still communist! I am proud to be American I bleed Red, White and Blue!

Today as I watched our armed forces walking through the parade; and the brave men and women who protect our streets it got me to thinking. I started feeling like I need to do more with my life. I don’t feel like my life is worth much, I don’t do any thing to enrich some one else’s life, or to help lift some one up and to make there burdens lighter. I am going to really think about what it is that I can do to make this world a better place, I feel like I need to more.

There was a military truck carrying one of the survivors of Pearl Harbor, the man must have been in his nineties, but man to think that some one from that generations is still alive to day his an amazing thought. I know that they said that there aren’t many survivors of Pearl Harbor still alive; I thought that was cool.

Well I will stop rambling; I just wanted to share the thoughts of the day with all of you. I love you all and I am glad that you are all a part of my life. You have been great; thanks for the support. Happy Fourth of July!