Updates

First off I want to wish all of you a Merry christmas; I hope that if was filed with the love of christ and the family that you love and care so much about. Our Christmas was wonderful, we put in a special request to santa and asked him to come to our house early. My sister is assistant Manager of Walkers oil gas station in Lehi and she got to open the store Christmas morning. She worked from five in the morning till one in the after noon. We had Christmas on christmas eve because santa said that he would come to our house first. My dad is in tight with the big man; for those of you who don't know my dad is one of santa's many assistance's during the christmas season. I will post some pictures of my parents dressed as Mr. and Mrs. Clause. They are cute!

It was nice to go to bed christmas eve and know that I didn't have to get up really early too open presesnts. I got up between seven and eight because my brother and sister in law came over for breakfast. We have christmas Breakfast together every year it has become our family tradition, so that they can have dinner with her family.

I did not feel well on Christmas day, I was up all night throwing up and with diarrhea; and did not feel well at all that day. On top of my stomach that was upset with me, I had a wicked headache, and the worst of all was my back.

Sarah and Hallie because we had Christmas on Christmas eve went to see the movie Alvin and the chipmunks with our friend shandy Christmas day. I stayed home and watched Harry potter and The Half Blood prince and played on the computer. Our friend Stephanie came over to visit that night.

I love christmas, it is the perfect time to tell the one's in your life that you love them. The birth of Christ is the most precious gift that any one could have given us; and it doesn't matter what religion race or creed that you are that birth plays a part in our lives. It is through him that we are all here and through him that we will have eternal life. I hope that we all stoped for a moment on Christmas day to remember or savior and the impact that his life had on ours. He is truly the the most precious gift that our father could have given us. I don't care what religion you are I hope that you set a side a moment for reflection on what it is that you believe in.

Update:

I went to a specialist about three weeks ago for my back; he is a spinal rehabilition specialist. they sent me too him for a second opinion, they want to send me to The Nexus Pain Clinic. But I have to tell you after watching what my best friend went through over the last four years. She had back sergery, they put a rod in her back and fused it; and from what I saw from a distance she went down hill from there. Spinal block and pain therapy didn't help her one bit. I blogged about her death a couple of months ago. I talked to her husband Joe last Saunday too see how him and the girls are doing. He told me that they got her death certificate and she died from all of the drugs that the pain clinic had her on. She was using Fentanol Patches, Methadone, oxycodon, Loretabes and those are only the ones that I knew about. Her poor body just decided that she couldn't take any more and it gave up.

So here is my dilemma; I am heading down the same path that Jackie was taking. I need to make a decision, do I want to go to a pain clinic and take my chances, trusting that Dr. Clifford can influnence my form of treatment. Or do I request to see my own doctor for my own second opinion, and see if they will let me see Dr. King, he specializes in Holistic Medicine and doesn't believe in the use of pain meds. I think that I would really feel safer going that route than the other.
I am still waiting too see what the Dr. said, and what Sedgwick is going to let me do.

All I know is that I am sick and tired of being in pain and I just want it too go away and I don't want to deal with it any more. But I don't think that it is going to be that easy. When I find out what is going on I will keep you all posted. I want to Thank all of you for your well wishes, love and prayers; they help me more than you will ever know.