Sleeping Better…..

I have been trying to sleep lying down; because sleeping sitting up very difficult. I would wake up every two hours and then not be able to go back to sleep for an hour or so.

So I have been trying the stairs a little bit; it doesn’t actually hurt to walk up and down them, but if I take them two many times a day then my tummy muscles ache a bit. I have been sleeping a little bit in my bed with my husband; I really miss having his warm body beside me, but I do start hurting towards morning from all the moving and wiggling. I stay down there until I have to get up and go to the bathroom and then I come upstairs and sleep the rest of the night.

I think that tomorrow after my husband gets up I am going to go down and have him help me get the laundry done. He will have to get things in and out of the washer and dryer and I will fold everything and put it away. He is really good at helping me; I will get up some mornings and he will have done some because we are out of under ware and I am a bad wife and wont feel like doing laundry. He is wonderful I love him a lot even though at times it is had to see.

I can not wait until I can sleep in my bed every night and have it not hurt. It is the little simple things in life that I am having a difficult time with right now. I am so excited and happy that I have already lost fifteen pounds; that is absolutely insane. I can’t act like I didn’t know that this was going to happen; because I did I watched my Best Friend Jackie transform in front of me.

She lives in Michigan and so it is still rather strange to see her; because she is my Jackie but at the same time isn’t. I love her more than anything and she is my inspiration for this surgery; she is the one that planted the seed inside me six years ago, but I had to wait until the time was right for me; I needed to make sure that I was ready for the change that I was going to be under going.

The change is huge, I have learned so much about my self. I didn’t realize that I was as strong as I am and it blows my mind. I am glad that I have had the chance to learn these things about my self. It has been a great experience and I will let you guys know about every change that happens.

Thank you for all the love and support. It is much appreciated and I want all of you to know that I love all of you very much.

Ronda Gardner